Kissing, Dancing and Being Honest

It's been a few days since I last posted. I have no excuse but to say that we haven't felt much like celebrating lately. We're at that part in our "ministry transition"/waiting adventure that well, to put it bluntly, pretty much sucks. Wednesday was a pretty hard day, filled with prayers for encouragement, tears of discouragement, stomach's churning witn anxiety, and long deep talks about our future. It was also "Kiss Your Mate" day. My kisses turned out to be kisses of comfort on tear stained cheeks. From him, and for him.

Thursday dawned after a rather sleepless night and nothing had changed. No answers, just pleas to the Lord that we receive some affirmation. Something to remind us He was there. Something to lift our spirits. Words of encouragement flooded in from family, friends, and collegeaus, and at the end of the day, though we had no clear answers, we at least felt a little better. And so we danced. It was International Dance Day.

Today's day of celebration is focused on being honest (Be Honest Day), and thus this post. My honest words in this blog today is that life is hard. Life is unpredictable. Life can kick you in the gut.

But...

God is faithful.

I tuned into the latest album from Steven Curtis Chapman while I worked today, and these lyrics -- written at a time in his life when he was deep in the grief of losing his 5 year old daughter -- hit me hard. May they speak to you, where ever you are at today.

I am broken, I am bleeding,
I'm scared and I'm confused,
but You are faithful.
Yes You are faithful.
I am weary, unbelieving.
God please help my unbelief!
Cuz You are faithful.
Yes You are faithful.

I will proclaim it to the world.
I will declare it to my heart
and sing it when the sun is shining.
I will scream it in the dark.

You are faithful!
You are faithful!
When you give and when You take away,
even then still Your name is faithful!
You are faithful!

And with everything inside of me,
I am choosing to believe You are faithful.

I am waiting for the rescue
that I know is sure to come,
cuz You are faithful.
Yes You are faithful.
I've dropped anchor in Your promises,
and I am holding on,
cuz You are faithful.
God You are faithful.

Though I cannot have the answer
that I'm wanting to demand,
I'll remember You are God
and everything is in Your hand.
In Your hands you hold the sun,
the moon, the stars up in the sky,
for the sake of Love, You hung Your own Son
on the cross...to die...

You are faithful...
Yes, You are faithful...
When you give and when You take away,
even then, great is Your faithfulness!
Great is Your faithfulness!

How have you celebrated life over the past few days?

Tomorrow: Mother Goose Day; Chocolate Parfait Day; Kentucky Derby Day